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|Posted by: StarChilde Aug 12 2005, 01:31 AM|
| This I dedicate to my son Brendan , who passed into another world in March... and is so missed, a void within me from his physical absence. I had found this many yrs. ago, and included it in his Celebration of Life Tribute. It is comfort, for anyone who has ever missed someone while they were apart from one another.
Firstly: nothing can make up for the absence of some one whom we love, & it would be wrong to try to find a substitute; we must simply hold out & see it through. That sounds very hard at first, but at the same time it is a great consolation, for the gap, as long as it remains unfilled, preserves the bonds between us. It is nonsense to say that God fills the gap; He doesn’t fill it, but on the contrary, He keeps it empty & so helps us to keep alive our former communion with each other, even at the cost of pain.
Secondly: the dearer & richer our memories, the more difficult the separation. But gratitude changes the pangs of memory into a tranquil joy. The beauties of the past are borne, not as a thorn in the flesh, but as a precious gift in themselves. We must take care not to wallow in our memories or hand ourselves over to them, just as we do not gaze all the time at a valuable present, but only at special times, & apart from these keep it simply as a hidden treasure that is ours for certain. In this way the past gives us lasting joy & strength.
Thirdly: times of separation are not a total loss or unprofitable for our companionship, or at any rate they need not be so. In spite of all the difficulties that they bring, they can be the means of strengthening fellowship quite remarkably.
Fourthly: I’ve learnt here especially that the facts can always be mastered, & that difficulties are magnified out of all proportion simply by fear & anxiety. From the moment we wake until we fall asleep we must commend other people wholly & unreservedly to God & leave them in His hands, & transform our anxiety for them into prayers on their behalf: With sorrow & with grief…God will not be distracted.
|Posted by: Mark Aug 12 2005, 09:37 PM|
| Hi StarChilde, I've read all of your posts and I'm sorry to hear about your son and the suffering he endured. And I'm angry that the medical practioners might have killed him.
I look at it this way, he's in a better place than this Hell we call Earth.
May the loving God of truth and compassion shine on you and yours, always.
May the War God of Israel be banished to the depths from whence it belongs.
Peace be with you StarChilde and remember, your son is no longer suffering and he loves you.
|Posted by: StarChilde Aug 12 2005, 10:58 PM|
| Blessings to you for your kindness~ for the love in your words, and the willingness to share and spread the truth in a world that strives to prove those who are truth seekers as wrong, or deranged... your reply brought tears to my eyes.
I respect those places where I find such gems, as treasures. Perhaps we all here are different from "the rest", but I'd rather be like me, and be real to myself, than to live a sham and be deceived and "accepted" by "them".
I seek to avenge my son's death in exposing the doctor..., yet even if my efforts are in vain, his deception will be repaid... one of those karmic things. I will not get so caught up in exposing him, that I deter myself from peace & love though. I know what the truth is, and through the attacks of "establishment", I dug in my heels, stood my ground, unwavering in that truth. It was those same medical professionals, & those who come under the guise of helping me, that tried to charge me with neglect... eight times in 10 yrs., and each time I was shown innocent, as it should be as I was. Three times were this past yr.(2004), when it was the health "professionals" *cough*killers*cough* who were attacking me, and it was the medications misprescribed that were causing his problems.
The saddest thing was that the only suffering my son went through was due to medical doctors, and when he was hospitalized. I fought for the right to keep him out of them, and was blessed to be able to have hospice put in place the last 7 weeks of his life. He was never hospitalized for 23 1/2 yrs., then in 2004, he was in there eight times. Something wrong with that picture eh?
My only consolation in Bren's death is knowing he is in a better place, & that he is totally free as we can only imagine~ sometimes I believe the hell is the one we go through on this earth before we pass on to the next level~
|Posted by: Mark Aug 12 2005, 11:29 PM|
| Hi StarChilde,
That is good to hear. We mustn't let them get away with negligence while at the same time not let ourselves become consumed with the revenge factor.
I recall you mentioning that before and that's what hurts the most. The ones we trust for care, end up making us sicker and sometimes killing us.
One day, I hope my people can understand that those who rule our lives truly hate us and we are less than human to them. They rule our lives controlling our society, governments, money systems, energy, transportation, products, religions, Hollywood, Amusement parks, entertainment, sporting events, music and militaries.
All the while slowly and gradually destroying the earth and us while using us to speed up the process of environmental destruction.
They poison us and make us sick from the unutritional foods we eat, the fluoridated water we drink, the fluoride in our toothpaste, the mercury in our teeth fillings to the mercury in vaccines. Toxic and nuclear waste, pesticides, DDT, pollution, acid rain, the list goes on and on.
We are poisoned from the womb.
The best thing we can do is to expose them.
Their deeds have provided us with all of the clues as to who they are and how they care for us.
I mean, really, why don't we eat foods that are loaded with minerals and vitamins?
Oh sure, you can search for these things and get them at a high cost... but in a society that cares for its flock, wouldn't you provide your people with mostly healthy nutritional foods, loaded with vitamins and minerals and without harmful chemicals. Wouldn't you make them reasonably priced/affordable?
Wouldn't you provide your people with safe, natural medications that cure and heal instead of making them sicker?
It only makes sense when you realize that it's a cabal, of ancient bloodlines... and they rule the Earth today.
But their time is coming. Their works and deeds have given them away.
Hang in there! You're not alone!
P.S. Thank you for bumping the Health section posts. You inspired me to want to detox and I'm going to try and get some of those minerals into my body.
|Posted by: StarChilde Aug 13 2005, 02:22 PM|
| Yes, it is a real jolt to discern the physical decline of someone you love is being caused by those who take an oath to heal. How legitimate is that vow when the supposed “cures” become the cause of so much!? There is so much we are not suppose to have a say so in anymore, & I for one, cannot be silent. I know there are others thinking the same, many on this forum.
I’d rather be thought of as odd by those who blindly follow “them” in ignorant allegiance, than to be one of the lemmings falling off of the cliff. I laugh at using that as an example, because that was staged by one of Illuminati’s mind control minions, Disney. Real lemmings do not have such behaviours, but were “herded” by a Disney film crew to propagate this fallacy. Just had a thought, it’s similar to what the “powers that be” are doing to humanity today.
I have been “chastised” by dentists when I speak out about fluoride & fillings, & told I do not know what I am talking about. Been told by doctors that the possible rare side effects could not possibly happen to me, or my children, when I seen the effects right in front of me. Been told that “their medicines” are the ONLY thing that can help me or my family. Seen a large percentage of our rural population die of cancers; the result of all the pesticides and chemicals used in farming before most of them were banned. These things amongst so much more; what a deceptive web “they” have been weaving. They make the black widow look like a saint in contrast.
“They” may have a bloodline, but they certainly don’t have a “heart”, not in the sense of love and nurturing. Their only nurturing comes to “fatten for the kill” or to proliferate their species. I agree Mark, their works & deeds have given them away, and their time is coming for what is reaped is sowed.
Detoxxing is my focus now, as well as healing my heart… although there will always be pain of missing my son, it will not be as raw, & I’ll be able to smile with thoughts of my son instead of tears making furrows in my cheeks.
|Posted by: Mark Aug 20 2005, 09:15 PM|
Isn't it amazing the power of tv, movies and the news media to influence people to believe something that simply isn't true?
Yes, it is very similar to what's happening today.
We are the lemmings and we are being herded into slavery via a false sense of freedom and staged 'false flag' terrorism while our environment is being destroyed and a police state is created.
Maybe non of it matters if this is all an illusion... a hologram... just one of many dimensions???
But I'd sure like to see the world I currently live in improve for future generations to enjoy.
I'm hoping that you will never mourn for your son to the point of depression and instead think of the good times which you had together. He would want you to be happy and not sad.
I have no children, but in 1995, on 11/13, when I was 33, I watched my mother, whom I still lived with, die right in front of me and it took me a long time to get over that experience.
May Peace and Love fill your life.
|Posted by: Impetuosity Aug 22 2005, 10:09 AM|
StarChilde, look in the yellow pages of your community (or one nearby) to see if you can find a wholistic dentist. I was fortunate to find one and am soooo glad. I have had all my mercury fillings replaced on one side and plan to do the other side when I can afford it. Theirs is a non-fluoride facility, as well, and in fact my dentist is constantly campaigning to have the fluoride removed from our city's drinking water. So far, his and others' work has resulted in a small reduction in the AMOUNT of fluoride that is being added. Hey, it's a start!
I have dealt with what I believe was mercury poisoning once when I broke off one of my teeth. The broken filling was leaking mercury into my mouth, which I was breathing, of course. It was the strangest set of symptoms of any I have experienced. I could not sleep all night, except for some fitful dozing. My senses were hyper-sensitive and every little sound jolted me and made my muscles twitch and jump. I had bizarre dreams.
I'll be glad to get the rest of that crappola out of my system!
Oh, if you get your mercury fillings replaced, make sure you ask for a vitamin C drip while they're working. Apparently, the vitamin C helps fight the poisons that are released while the work is being done.
|Posted by: StarChilde Aug 22 2005, 10:23 AM|
| Thanks Mark & Impetuousity for the posts~
Mark, am sure that was hard w/ your mom~ I watched Bren decline over a 14 month period, well 16 months all total, but the last 14 were the hardest. It was a blessing though,to be able to be with him instead of having medical society dictate to our family... to be able to be with him constantly,spend his last time on earth totally together... it was hard, but it will be time I treasure forever.
There are no wholistic anything here Impetuousity. We had to look outside the county to even find a doctor who was willing to put my son on hospice! I don't have any fillings left in my mouth, and will make sure our daughter is not poisoned should she have to have any fillings. I am not going to let them put any flouride in her mouth either.
I probably should not even be on here. Had a bad phone call with my mom, who made it her point to tell me how "strange" my family thought it was, that I carry some of Brendan's ashes in a necklace I constantly wear, and how we celebrated his bday. Until it is them who goes through it, they have no room to talk! Sorry~ like I said, probably should not be posting in the mind set I am in now... it ain't the first time my family has done this to me, and surely won't be the last~
|Posted by: Mark Aug 22 2005, 10:40 AM|
IMO, There's nothing wrong with carrying your sons ashes with you.
I'd probably do that too. But heck, I'm insane - look around this forum.
I had my mom cremated and she is with my half brother in AZ whom I rarely speak to anymore. I miss her more than life itself - she was my best friend and no matter what I talked about she seemed to actually care.
One of the last times I spoke to my half brother, he called me a bleeding heart left winged liberal when I told him that Saddam had no connection to 9/11 and he was not a threat to USA and the Iraq war was waged over lies.
Either my brother is totally brainwashed/mind controlled/possessed or he sold out for his 30 pieces of silver. He does own a nice 3 bedroom home with a pool, has a decent income, has 2 vehicles and his 2 children had more toys at age 6 than I did my entire life.
StarChilde, don't worry about expressing yourself when upset, sometimes we say what is most important to us while under diress.
Please feel free to open up and express yourself. You can always edit your posts later if you regret what you said.
|Posted by: StarChilde Aug 26 2005, 09:05 PM|
| Mark,... thanks. Its been a rough week. Lots of memories flooding my brain & heart.
Anytime we lose someone who is close to our heart, the after effects will be there... and when it is someone who we could really relate with and to, there is even more of an effect.
I have to remind myself of how most of my family has ALWAYS been towards me, and how some things just change for a bit, then go back to how they were, if they change at all that is.
And then I also keep reminding myself...that sometimes when ppl make promises, or whatnot... they don't always mean what they say... sometimes it is because they think it is what you want to hear...
Knowing there is somewhere to vent helps some... although this week, I have taken time away from the puter. Saved people from my ranting heheh...
|Posted by: redniut Aug 27 2005, 07:11 PM|
| Hi All,
StarChilde, please ban the thinking "i shouldn't be here".
Your posts make other people wake up, take precautions and read in depth about the cases dicussed.
Everyone who has children take all matters about them very serious. They all want the best for them.
You follow you feelings. Keep it up!! nomatter what strange looks or words it causes in other (narrow) minded people.
you are one of the soldiers needed so badly by the rest of the sheep...
byetheway, I carry the ashes from my mother in a necklace since her passing (5 years).
Strength and love to you
|Posted by: StarChilde Aug 28 2005, 06:45 PM|
thanks rn., sometimes i need reminders & wakeup calls.
I should keep in mind also, it is when I do heavy advocating,that I get "attacked" afterwards, for lack of a better word at the moment.
We all have faced similar I believe, when we stand up & make our voices known and heard, there will always be those who oppose. ALthough I do not expect all to agree with me, narrow mindedness is a trait I abhor!
Does that make me narrowminded about narrowmindedness?
I have been through so much from "them", because my son was disabled, that I want others to hear as well, how "they" can be.
I am really glad this forum is here... last night was bad, I almost came on here, and sent out a rescue plea... then morning came, & some peace.
thanks all~ for being here... in a way, we support one another here, just by sharing what we see as truth, and have found to be truth even when its direct opposition to what "they" want us to think truth is.
|Posted by: Mark Aug 28 2005, 10:45 PM|
| Hi StarChilde, I've been having some problems here so I havn't been posting lately. I've been in severe pain. I didn't want to worry anyone so I've been silent.
Nah, not at all. Tis good to abhor, Tis bad to hate.
What I've learned is that you can only educate an open mind that is ready. No matter what we try to tell the mind controlled, brainwashed masses, UNTIL they are ready, it is almost a waste of time and energy.
Also, we must realize that detractors are everywhere and they are well financed.
Hang in there and I'll keep a light on for ya in our sanctuary!
|Posted by: Mark Aug 29 2005, 11:15 AM|
| Relating to my last post above, you can see how there is no hope for some people. They will defend the liars and criminals to their own death and demise and they will gladly send their children off to die so that the crooks can continue to profit.
This quote from the movie The Matrix really sums it up.
We cannot help these people!
|Posted by: StarChilde Sep 2 2005, 05:55 PM|
| We may not be able to help some, & there are those days when all seems hopeless... but let us remember, it only takes one candle to chase away the darkness. Even if there is only one light, it is not as dark as it would be without it.
We must not shirk from sharing the light, which is truth, even it is only miniscule... we can only plant the seeds, it is not up to us to make them grow. Many factors are variables in how well something takes hold & grows, or doesn't grow; light,dark, nourishment,water,soil... and more.
As one of my favorite poems reads: plant your own garden, & nourish your own soil, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
Too many are waiting for someone else to bring the flowers. Although it is a beautiful gesture, it doesn't always happen.
There will always be weeds, and thorns. Sometimes people don't realize what they have inside or are capable of. It's much easier for some to blame everything on everyone else, instead of taking responsibility for their own actions. And there are "none so blind, as they who will not see".
Cut me off for rambling....
p.s. glad you are feeling better,have not been online much myself...dealing with the real world.